Tuesday, April 23, 2024
Cold
“Are you cold daddy” - after I gave my little one my sweatshirt.
“Not if you’re warm, baby.”
Sunday, April 21, 2024
Transgressions
To the ignorant
Or the child
To see it and
Not see it
Or to ignore it; ignorance.
To the offset
If any virtue
Lay selfish
Brutish
Ill-mannered intentions
Lie just beneath
The mark of good
And on top of
The possibility of success.
Learn
Or fail
Kids today
I took Ella and Wells to a rope climbing zip line course. It was hard. It was harder than I expected. I had taken them before but either did the easy ones with Pickle or watched - today they asked and I did it with them. And for the first time… I knew 2 things
1. That they were better at this than I was. I don’t remember being better at much else than me - but this was obvious. Especially with Wells who is a brave little guy. Braver than I was at that age for sure. And Ella with similar fears as mine to heights - conquered those fears with grace.
2. My kids are going to be better than I ever was. And that’s amazing.
Way out there
… in the “bloop”
Of the fishing lure
Hitting a still lake
Hails the distance
Of keen eye
Tinkering
That can change
Your world
Forever
John Lee Hooker
Read between the
Times
No
Lines
That she knew
Would pass
Unnoted and flat
So long ago
You fool
Saturday, April 20, 2024
Learning in a week
Here’s what we learned this week.
1. Be present all the time
2. Don’t take someone else’s desire to share things with you for granted
3. Your feelings are important but the way you behave can hurt others and you need to understand their response and feelings.
4. Act with intent. Don’t wait. Get it done now. Get it done everyday.
5. You can’t make someone feel or do something they don’t want to - no matter what. So - be better earlier and always. So you won’t have regrets.
6. If you lose - you lose. But you move forward. Because others are waiting for you to be awesome.
7. Don’t make it about yourself
8. Don’t pass your negativity on like it’s a gift - it’s not
9. Other people want to feel happy - that happens many different ways - make sure you see signs of their happiness and remember them.
These are valuable lessons to learn.
Pit
When you know
The feeling of
“I’m sorry but…”
Is coming.
Or you think its coming
It gives me a fever
And nausea
And it’s my least
Favorite feeling.
Need more steel.
I’ve got it.
I’m going to show it.
Thursday, April 18, 2024
Tempest
Early to noon
Follows down
The time you took
To right wrongs;
And to honestly
Sit with the wind-
Reminding you
That you can only control
Your reaction to the rain.
Instead of cowering,
Stand for what you want,
What you believe
And fight for the sky
Outside the eye
Saturday, April 13, 2024
Sadly
I have created a world
Where no one cares
If I’m here or a birthday
Or a father
Or a sun
Or the time
That comes
With the passing of peace
I have become
The fear
That I harbor
To the point
Where I can not pretend
But I want love
And love won’t find
Falsehoods wrapped in
Skepticism
Multiplied by doubt
So the birthday sun
Sleeps slower
To the side
Of all missed
In aisles of smiles
Monday, April 08, 2024
Food and love
Wells and I went and had lunch and a haircut today. I had my first ever pit beef submarine sandwich.
And I told him that the place we ate was pretty good. Now the place we ate was a rundown shithole though. As a matter of fact it’s all turning into that here. It’s likely time to move north or somewhere else.
I should have explained to him that food - like love - can be found in any enivorment. Food doesn’t take any certain extreme skill - it takes love. To make something good you need to pay attention, think of your audience, think of them enjoying it and the happiness it brings. Then you need to do it over and over every day. And that’s love.
Saturday, April 06, 2024
Your brain needs to heal
I think the anxiety, euphoria, or laziness caused by drugs or alcohol eventually seeps into your psyche and convinces you that’s who you are.
How many people do you know identify as stoners, alcoholics, or drug addicts?
Thats who they are… they joke about it, live it everyday as if that shouldn’t tell them that this is who they are. Some are proud of it even and then that’s who they become. And its sad. If you drink everyday that’s a part of you. If you do drugs everyday that’s a part of you. Same as going to the gym or going to work. More so even because you’re escaping maybe.
That pattern has to stop before it becomes permanent. I’ve already lead down that path far too far. And I better become much more intellectual, quiet, and strong before it’s too late.
I think being a real bad ass is actually being the best person you can be and not some guy that drinks or does drugs. Thats a real badass. You can have a drink - but you should never get drunk. You shouldn’t joke about bad behaviors. It makes you look like a peasant. I want to live my life from now on - and it better start now before it’s too damn late.